The Shore

The waves had carried the small boat to the shore. She didn’t know where it could have come from but somehow it felt it had arrived right where it should be. As she approached she noticed the young man, lying in it, his face pale and his side bloody. His breath was ragged, his skin was cold and yet he was obviously burning with fever. He was dying. She knew it immediately. He was dying and there was nothing she could do. Nothing to save him at least, but perhaps she could ease his pain. The heavy wrinkles were unmistakable traces of the suffering. They were not scars and yet they were, momentary scars of the turmoil that went on inside. He was dying and she wanted to help.

How she managed to make her voice carry to the castle she couldn’t say, all she knew is that it had and somehow the guards had found her. She had given orders and the young man had been carried to a room in the high tower, her room – she would sleep in her sister’s, it was long unoccupied anyway. Her father had come with the doctor, finding her on her knees, by the large bed, lost in her patient’s form. Her patient he was now, for even after the doctor repeated the words she had already formulated in her own mind, she insisted that she would nurse him. Perhaps not back to health but at least to a more painless death. She would nurse him if none other would try, even if were to fail, even if he died. He wouldn’t die though, she could feel it. Or at least she hoped so with all her heart, day and night, by his side, she hoped and hoped. She would not stop hoping. She simply could not. Even thought she knew perfectly well that she didn’t know him, he was nobody to her, but she had found him on the beach and thus it had become her duty to take care of him.

Day and night. Night and day. Day after day. Week after week. For months she remained by his side, only leaving to attain to the basics of her status as the castle’s lady and to sustain her self. A full moon came and went and he remained bed-ridden, shivering with cold and burning up at the same time, unresponsive but breathing. He was alive. Alive weeks after the short time the doctor had given him, alive in spite of all common sense. Hanging by a thread of sheer willpower, or luck, or divine clemency – she could not say – and taking in breath after breath, each ragged and difficult, but taken in nonetheless. Finally, one fine morning, as winter began to melt upon the world and the sun rose to the east, after refusing to go away for so long, the wound at his side finally shed its last bloody tear.

No matter the cataplasms, the potions or the spells, nothing had worked, it had kept spilling the life out of him, each day annulling the care that the lady had put into treating and keeping the young man on the edge of the last breath. Nothing had worked. It was cleaned, disinfected and stitched shut each night, and every morning it would be found open again, spewing blood. Not profusely but never a small enough amount to hope for him to recover. However, that one morning it had stopped, after hours upon hours of sweat and prayers, after days of struggling and nights of wakes, as the young woman woke up she saw no blood. It had refused to close, the deep and fateful cut as fresh as on the first day she had laid eyes on him, but bleeding no more. The day had passed and although his state had not changed in any way, it had not gotten worse. Then came night and then day again, with no sleep on her part, no rest for her weary heart and mind, which over time had grown accustomed to his uneven breathing and the boiling chill of his skin.

It was on the first light of the next day that the countless prayers she had thrown into the air, all the hopes she had kept afloat for so long, for the first time, crystalized into something beautiful. A single tear, running from the corner of the eye to the corner of the mouth. It glided soundlessly on the pallor of his skin, stopped only by her finger as she ran it on his cheek. Awestruck, she had seen the water collect and the power of gravity slowly do its deed as it attracted the painful rains to the ground. She could barely believe it but, refusing to let this miracle be lost, she let her hand shoot to his cheek without a second though and collected the living pearl. Reflexively, as her fingers touched the cold and gruff surface, she let them keep contact and run further, along the hill of his cheekbone to the ledge of his jaw line. A small beard had begun growing again and the fever had kept him at the edge of freezing and boiling, and yet, under her finger, nothing had ever felt more soft.

Still in the most complete of silence, a small wind began to blow through the half-open window and sunlight poured in over the bed. Suddenly, the world seemed to halt as she felt it. It was lightning quick and softer even than the songs of birds outside, yet she had felt it. As clear as she saw the tear run along her finger now and as strongly as she heard his ragged struggle for life, something she felt she had not in an eternity. A heartbeat. A single, solitary heartbeat, lacking strength, lacking its ever-present echo, but a heartbeat nonetheless. There, in the morning-lit room, where the dead man had kept bleeding for so long, and where silence reigned unchallenged, her shoulders began to shake…


The scene where it all begins again.

In a part of the story inspired by an old legend.

Idée fixe

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Du bout des doigts je la caresse

Mais je ne sais me décider,

Je ne sais si c’est par paresse,

Si mon courage est oxydé,

Ou si je crains ma maladresse…

Je me sens bien trop évidé,

Affaibli par la sécheresse

De mon cœur et de ses idées;

Peut-être faut-il que je laisse

L’énigme non-élucidée?

Que je cède à cette faiblesse

En acceptant l’âme ridée,

Elle dont la grande détresse

Vient aigrement consolider

La haute et sombre forteresse

De ma verve dilapidée?

Ou encor que tout cela cesse

Et que je me laisse guider

Par le doux encens de grand messe

Qu’émane de cette orchidée…

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Compter fleurette.

Acme, act me

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I am not doing my best

Nor putting my abilities to the test

I am gently cruising by

Living life as simply as a sigh.

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A little meta never hurt nobody.

EDIT 27/11/2017: changed first ‘simply’ to ‘gently’

Odette

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In and of itself, in the simplest terms,

Life is but a shelf on which we take turns,

How we have rusted away and faded,

Vessel not trusted with its mind jaded,

Escape while you can, fly, oh fly young fool!

Years of your lifespan flee before you, cruel…

Once you realize it is far too late

Under the disguise lies the true template.

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I have one but let yourself have yours.

Quête

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J’erre et je cherche, sans but autre que mon but : trouver.

Je ne sais où il se cache, je ne sais ou le chercher,

Tout les éclis virevoltent sous la hache

Qui prépare l’immense bûcher.

Mon cœur sait où elle se cache

Mais à jamais je ne peux qu’en rêver.

Il faut continuer à avancer, à tourner en rond,

Il faut continuer à chanter, à sourire et à rire sous

Le masque de mes pensées, de mes envies, de mes espoirs,

Je ne sais que vous dire,

Je ne sais que penser,

Pour moi le mystérieux élixir

Ne sert qu’à faire danser

Les imbéciles et les sots, les oublieux et les fous,

Et pourtant je m’élance et pirouette dans le vent

Mon esprit aussi fébrile que volatile

Alors que mon cœur va de battement en battement

Éclipsant même le plus sourd de ses grondements

A la recherche de cet El Dorado, cet Atlantis

Qu’un royaume d’araignées et de Maures tisse

M’emprisonnant.

Je n’ai jamais été aussi libre, aussi vivant,

Alors pourquoi sens-je ces chaînes à mes pieds ?

Que ne voudrais-je aller de l’avant,

M’offrirait-on une aventure qui me sied ?

Je ne demande ni ne supplie,

Marchant sous le Soleil et les étoiles,

Seul mais pas solitaire, toujours vers l’horizon,

La Terre comme mère et de paire avec la Lune,

Et lorsque je me perds je recherche la mer

Du haut de la plus haute dune

Elle seule fait taire de son goût sel amer

Le souffle de mon âme qui mugît de douleur

Sous les coups de la lame aux mille-et-une couleurs.

Cette quête éternelle s’achèvera un jour

Lorsque les doux pétales

Du rosier blanc de neige

Toucheront le sol et quitteront l’air…

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Assignement: Ars Poetica

Fugue

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When I will be old, in my neighborhood

There will come a car with Time at its wheel

It shall maybe slow down but never stop for good

And as it drives by I will stare boldly,

No matter what I think, no matter what I feel

Because it will pass and never remain.

His hair neatly combed as he smiles coldly,

An immortal king looking upon its domain,

Immoral being, eternal seductor,

And when the rumble of the engine subsides,

When comes the final wave of this conductor,

Not even the moon shall command the tides

But I will stand there, in my neighborhood,

Where all my ancestors before me proudly stood.

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“Write an untruth about yourself.”

Mirror mirror

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Once the mirror reflected

A sight not unkind to me

But my own mind deflected

The years as an enemy,

My soul did no speak the same

Tongue that my body practised,

No one else had yet noticed

But it brought on worlds of shame,

I could feel that I would drown

In this heavy bleeding gown

So became a smile my frown

As I shifted upside down.

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Poetry with a secret: “I have had plastic surgery done.”

Not sure if I’m completely satisfied of that one.

Pharaon

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D’abord il croit un rêve

Quand un doux vent se lève

Au dessus de la grève,

– La folie et sa sève –

Pourtant doute s’achève

Et bientôt le noir glaive

S’éfface et disparait

Au travers du velour

Si vieux pourtant si rouge :

Un voilier reparaît;

Le coeur en est moins lourd

Et l’espoir en corps bouge.

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Référence, référence, quand tu nous tiens.

Apology

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I am sorry to think of you in such a way.

That is a lie, you are a lovely mystery

I cannot help but gladly want to solve away,

At the sight, the simple thought; such sweet reverie…

You are such, my obsession. Wherefrom comes this sweet

Passion? I know not, from heart or mind or elsewhere?

I wish not to make you my own – I fear defeat –

How would I even dare hope to make you aware

Of what I think, of what I feel, of you, so fair…?

Your lively eyes, your playful hands, your fierce, bright hair,

Your sweet smile, melodious voice, your joyful presence;

To me you are a dream, a sweet evanescence,

An angel in my world, improbable beauty,

I don’t know what to think, I don’t know what to say

A simple word of you would make my whole world sway,

Welcome anomaly in my reality.

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A musing.

Hello

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Oh what a wonderful greeting

To this long-awaited meeting,

So many words I wish to say,

So many hopes but, be what may,

I am in this moment, fleeting…

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The script for this particular piece has yet to be written…